What do we want to do with our life?

Hello everybody, it’s been an interesting January for me and I hope you’ve had a good one too. I’ve spent most of this month doing a bit of soul-searching as I seem to do more than actually doing anything, trying to find an actual purpose within my meandering path. Not long ago I wanted to go full throttle on our Youtube channel and twitch streaming, but having done it on and off for a fair few months now, I’m not sure that’s where my head/heart wants to go. Obviously, I enjoy games, and so does the lady but on a schedule doesn’t seem to work. I’ve not found a game I really want to play in a long while, all that I can think of is Avaria and writing that story, about designing the characters and getting them down on paper. It’s been a consistent pattern with me, that I always come back to making this story. I think I had a moment of clarity when I was in the pub the other day. I was talking to a good friend about what we wanted out of life, his goal was to be an entrepreneur, to be able to sink investments into new start-ups the way someone is investing into his new business. To be filthy rich if we boil it down, but then do things and build on that big pile O money. I had to think about it for a while, I have a remarkable amount of freedom thanks to my job, someone even recently approached me to buy my company and have me as an employee, apparently my sites are pretty good. but that offer knocked the wind out of me, and I realised that the last thing I’d want to do is go back to being an employee, I value the freedom so much more than the money. Even if I’d end up earning 2-3 times more, I wouldn’t be able to take the kids to school and pick them up when I want, to take days off for sports days as I see fit, to meet up with the lady for lunch on any given day. I’d also be tied to

I think I had a moment of clarity when I was in the pub the other day. I was talking to a good friend about what we wanted out of life, his goal was to be an entrepreneur, to be able to sink investments into new start-ups the way someone is investing into his new business. To be filthy rich if we boil it down, but then do things and build on that big pile O money. I had to think about it for a while, I have a remarkable amount of freedom thanks to my job, someone even recently approached me to buy my company and have me as an employee, apparently my sites are pretty good. That offer knocked the wind out of me, and I realised that the last thing I’d want to do is go back to being an employee. I value the freedom so much more than the money. Even if I’d end up earning 2-3 times more, I wouldn’t be able to take the kids to school and pick them up when I want, to take days off for sports days as I see fit, to meet up with the lady for lunch on any given day. I’d also be tied to web design permanently. I don’t really like building sites, I do it because I can and it’s my most saleable skill, but I don’t like it. This year hopefully I’ll have someone else doing the website work and I’ll be working towards managing a team of designers freeing me up to do more of the things I love. Coming back to the pub and my answer to the title question, my answer to my entrepreneur destined friend was I want to make beautiful things and tell stories, and I’m not really bothered what form they take, I just want to create things that make people feel something. So that’s what I’m doing. I’ve stepped up the writing I’m doing in the Avaria section here, trying to write something coherent and engaging, I’ve also picked up my drawing practice with gusto, which I stream now instead of games. I hope you’ll join me for a stream sometime.

 

 

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